Jaded

I feel alone in my body

I feel a silence underneath

In these valleys of blood

In these rivers of rust

Shoulder all the blame again

Mirror locked until the end

It was violent and rough

I was never enough

But what if I was stable enough to wind me down the road

Like a remora swims?

But what if I was inside a thousand lives to give my ghost?

It's never enough, it's never enough

And I've always been ashamed that I want to

Fall into a dream with my honour desecrated

Blood is jaded

I've never found a way to be honest

All I know is a place where I haunted memories faded

Blood is jaded

In my dreams all I see is a crimson key

Tethered by a falling string

Meant to turn in the lock for me

I can't leave so I justify

Interloper of confidence

Under pressure of influence

Not a curse that I caused

Never to rot

But what if I was? (What if I was?)

But what if I was?

It's never enough, it's never enough

And I've always been ashamed that I want to

Fall into a dream with my honour desecrated

Blood is jaded

I've never found a way to be honest

All I know is a place where I haunted memories faded

Blood is jaded

I know where I want to go

But you know that it's too close

And you know that it's too late this time

And I've always been ashamed that I wanna

Fall into a dream with my honour

I've never found a way to be honest

All I know is a place where I haunted memories faded

Blood is jaded

And I've always been ashamed that I want to

Fall into a dream with my honour desecrated

Blood is jaded

I've never found a way to be honest

All I know is a place where I haunted memories faded

Love is jaded

What if I was?