Attention By Design

Anxious and bored

I'm so invisible

Where the fuck's my award

For my sadness and trouble?

Maybe I should take a pic

Make it seem like I am sick

Post it and get high off of the clicks

I'm sad, mad

And no one cares

A stranger's life is on the line

But what about me?

It's a shame

They can't see how bad I ache

And crave attention by design

If I'm not hurt enough

I guess I'll work on it

And next time I'll look weaker than when I was on drugs

My mom overdosed when I was 9

Maybe I should post about it?

My dad was never there for me, never there when I cried

Maybe I should post about it?

Now I'm almost 30, self diagnosed with PTSD

I should post about it

I wanna be a part of the trend

'Cause now I understand

I'm nothing if I don't feel pain

I'm nothing if I'm not insane

I'm nothing if I don't have fame

I'm sad, mad

And no one cares

A stranger's life is on the line

But what about me?

It's a shame

They can't see how bad I ache

And crave attention by design

If I'm not hurt enough

I guess I'll work on it

And next time I'll look weaker than when I was on drugs

I feel like a ghost

I bleed the most

But nobody knows

I'm sad, mad

And no one cares

A stranger's life is on the line

But what about me?

It's a shame

They can't see how bad I ache

And crave attention by design

If I'm not hurt enough

I guess I'll work on it

And next time I'll say that I wanna kill myself